Peace or something similar

I feel weird. That's really all I can say.

I don't feel like the same person I went to bed as last night. Maybe it's the weather. I feel like someone's taken a graph of my emotional distribution and cut off the tail parts. Things that normally excite me elicited nothing more than mild elation. Things that used to make me angry couldn't make my gut burn.

I wouldn't say my head was in the clouds; despite the rain, there wasn't enough gray area up there to define how I feel.

The more I think the less I care. Love? It can wait. Loneliness? It's a fact of life. Want? Everyone does. All those used to bother me. For some reason, none of them have affected me today. I even tried to upset myself. I looked at some old pictures, read some old e-mails, and tried to think of parts of my past I'd rather forget. And I wasn't moved.

Regardless of this, I walked around with a sort of smile on my face all day. It was mostly absent-minded, and when I realized it, I was neither ashamed nor amused at myself. Maybe this is the state my mind belongs in. Perhaps there's a reason gray is my favorite color and the color of my eyes. I could be coming into my own.

Soundtrack for this update:
Are You With Me? - Vaux - Beyond Virtue, Beyond Vice
A To B - The Futureheads - The Futureheads
Rental Car - Beck - Guero
Pattern Skies - The Greenhornes - Sewed Soles
Blankest Year - Nada Surf - The Weight Is a Gift