Something on.

I can't really say that I'm pressing on, because that would assume I'm making an effort, nor am I floating on, because that implies a sense of joviality. I guess that moving on would be the best description I can think of. I really don't like to be nondescriptive with action verbs, but I'm going to admit I'm stumped with this one.

It all boils down to social dynamics. I know that my last post was vindictive and probably inappropriate, but I stand by what I felt at the time. What I didn't realize, however, was the inevitability of this sort of thing happening.

After I had gotten over the initial shock of the events that transpired this summer, I began to feel a bit better. I was so sure that everyone would be appalled with her actions, so that I'd still have a chance of frequent friendship with you guys. That was not to be; I didn't realize you were so close with her so that what she did wouldn't matter. Does that sound sarcastic? I'm trying to decide whether it should or not.

I just had an amusing though about the word "better," in that it's so similar to the word "bitter." Also note that "i" is the next vowel following "e" in the alphabet.

Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

I refuse to further blame you guys for what happened. That would be offensive, nonconstructive, and simply wrong. You are all part of a large group of good friends, something which is both healthy and fun. It would be wrong to begrudge you of that, and to expect you to choose me over them would be a miserable act on my part. What I really want is for you three--you know who you are--to be happy.

I expect that I'll be going through some transition for the next few months, as I'd like to find a group like your own. I'm sorry that I wasn't a better friend while it lasted.

My apoligies,
Andy Bodine